Songs:)

So I made a list of some amazing songs. There not in order because I can't they are all to amazing:)

1. I've Had My Moments By: Emerson Drive
2. Sexy And I Know It By: LM**O
3. Stay By: Sugerland
4. Blah Blah Blah By: Ke$ha
5. Stuck Like Glue By: Sugerland
6. The Lazy Song By: Bruno Mars
7. Easy By: Rascal Flatts
8. I Have Been Blessed By: ??
9. We Are Who We Are By: Ke$ha
10. Grenade By: Bruno Mars
11. Judas By: Lady Gaga
12. The Best Thing I Never Had By: Beyonce
13. Beatiful By: Christina Aguilera
14. Jar Of Hearts By: Christina Perri
15. Last Friday Night By: Katy Perry
16. In The Arms Of In Angel By: Sarah McLachlan
17. No One By: Alicia Keys
18. Love The Way You Lie By: Eminem
19.I Loved Her First By: Heartland
20. You Can Let Go Now Daddy By: Crystle Shawanda
21. I Love You This Big By: Scotty McCreery
22. Hollaback Girl By: Gwen Stefani
I also made a list of terrible songs

1. God Gave Me You By: Blake Shelton
2. I Love You Like A Love Song By: Selena Gomez
3. Baby By: Justin Beiber
4. ET By: Katy Perry

Not as many horrible songs as there are good:)

Ever had those moments?

We all have our moments...good ones and bad. And fortunately most of those moments are good. Ever had those moments where you get so embarressed you wish you could just shrink away and die. I've had those, like the time I went to the restroom at church and when I was leavign half my skirt wasn't pulled all the way down...yeah that was a time when I really wanted to die. You remember what you wanted to be when you were six years old..I do. I wanted to be a doctor..then I got a shot, and I never wantd to join forces with the enemy. Or those moments where you made a complete idiot out of your best friend?? I think those are the best moments...until they get you back and you wonder why you ever would do something to make them do this. Or them moments you get cussed out and say "God bless you." I have had those..they usually get ticked off at me. Or the moment when your little sister asks you what the B word means? Yupp I've had that happen to..I actually answered "Did someone call you that?!" she answered wisely "No, you idiot, I wanted to call you that." At first I thought she was being serious then I knew she wa being sarcastic. Ever had those moments when you didn't get a joke? Yupp had that to, and I still don't get any Yo Moma jokes. Or the moments when you get so mad at someone you really want to hurt them. I've had those..and trust me counting to ten doesn't usually work...just saying. Or when you spend your day writing a story only to have your brother laugh at it. Okay, so maybe it didn't happen to you but it did happen to me. I spent all day writing a really good story (I was eight and I thought it was good but...) about a guy I liked at the time (Elok) and when I read it to my brother, he busted out laughing. I learned taht day never to read anything to my brother again. Or when you reallly don't get football no matter how hard you try. Yeah, I still don't get it. We all have those moments where we really don't understand stuff..but admitt it...those are THE BEST moments of our lifes.

Today...sort of.

Just got back from church. I live like....thirty minutes away from my church, but I wouldn't trade churches for anything. I have gone there for...almost thirteen years!! I don't really like Sunday School, but it's okay. It's kind of hard for me to sit still the whole hour because of my ADD. Plus our teacher doesn't let us talk or ask questions, which to me is really really hard. But besides that it's pretty cool. I'm trying to get my mom to get me and ipod touch for my birthday (in two weeks) and it's not going as planned. Then I told her just to give me money ($150) and that's also not going great. But change of subject. So I am a fourteen year old girl and I already have my baby names planned out. Yeah I'm weird. I have like sixty pages of baby names...which is about six thousand names. I have a lot of free time on my hands so don't judge. Okay so today my friend Lindie told us a joke. So I hope you all know what LOL means because if you don't...well you don't. So this thought LOL meant Lots of Love, so when her mom died she texted her daughter and said "Gramma just died, LOL." I really did LOL. Because someone really needs to teach theirmom what LOL means. So my friend Cayre is dating my other friend Kollin. And when Cayre is on her 'monthly' Kollin says "Have you met TOM?' TOM means Time Of Month...yeah I just got that. This is a very random post...can't really think about anything to talk about...so I'll blog later:)

Random Facts

1. I love Anything Neon
2. loveGod
3. love the Bible
4. love writing
5. love math
6. lovet he song Sexy And I Know it
7. I'm adopted
8. My middle name is Mae
9. My bestfriend is Cayre
10. My best guys friends name is Elok, Nillok, Notolk and others
11. love Chicken
12. Hate when drama happens
13. Dramatic people
14. I HATE racism with a passion
15. I want world peace
16. I love when everyones getting along
17. Nillok has a ver interesting ming
18. I love Aeropostle
19. I love mismatched socks
20. I like purses that are cute
21. I actually like one of my guy best friends
22. I HATE mushrooms
23. I HATE bullying
24. I am really lazy:)
25. I have blue eys...jk I have brown eyes
26. I have alot of blond moments..one of them was a bathroom incident with Cayre
27. Why am I doing this??
28. I spend way to much time writing
29. Hahahaha I love a guy named Notlok
20. Yeah I'm done:)

Misc...

Some..stuff about me. I smoke pot...kidding..kidding..don't lose your mind. I was kidding. My name is Breanna Mae. I have to many brothers and sisters to list but I have two brothers and five sisters. I also have a twin sister...her name is Eryca Lauren. I'm kidding...shes like my bestest friend in the world and I don't know what I would do without her...she's like my inspiration. Okay so I also have ALOT of guy friends. Kole, Kollin, Kolton, Kaden, Russel, Alec, Alex, Alex, Connor, Mason, Landon, Jackson....and it goes on and on and on. My girls friends are Eryca, Lindie, Whitney, Katee, Katie, Kaitie, Katye, Kaytye, Emile, Emmalee, Emalee, Emily, Emily, and more and more and more. So yeah. I love to write poetry and stuff. I like LOVE Ke$ha and Bruno Mars because they are amazing.  I love to read....it's like my passion. I love to write...unless I am under pressure..then you got a whole different story. I drink beer....I'm just kidding again....don't lose your mind. I brink root beer...my motto?? "If your gonna drink and drive drink root beer." Not really mine for real it's my Spanish teachers. Hahahahah...I also have a very crazy but amazing spanish teacher. You wouldn't understand unless you've met her. Trust me. Okay so I yuppppp...that's it.

If Only

                                        If Only

                             By: Breanna Miller

It’s dark and cold and lonely

I can’t help to think ‘If Only’

I could have chosen the right way

‘No’ I could have chose to say

All my friends followed this path

They said to take the other way was daft

They told me it was neat and cool

But over it I would lose my soul

One beer won’t hurt one little bit

It’s okay for one cigarette to be lit

Try cocaine just this one time

I thought if I did I would shine

Crack is great, it’s the best thing

But I only brought my self shame

I put on a smile and laughed a lot

Really I though of all the trouble I’d got

On the outside I felt so alive

On the inside I knew I had died

I drank and partied every single day

I was really living I could never say

I began to miss my old peaceful life

A life that never had any of this strife

I realized it was to late to stop

All these habits I couldn’t drop

I never thought I would go this far

Never thought I would enter a bar

I was being drug down faster

Drugs and cocaine were my master

I couldn’t do it anymore, I wanted to be free

I was bound forever as far as I could see

This path isn’t all fun and games

It was a disgrace to even say my name

I had my joy and merriment

Now I don’t even have a cent

I couldn’t go back I was to far gone

A far as I could see I as done

Then this man reached way down

He picked me up before I drowned

He gave me some food and something to drink

He told me of death I was on the brink

I was dirty and my scars you could see

Then he asked me if I wanted to be free

I stared a moment the I said sir

I’m to far gone can’t you see my dirt

He gave a smile and quickly replied

Just for you on a cross I bled and died

I gaped in astonishment, the tears coming fast

I would be free from this burden at last

I didn’t know whether to laugh or to cry

Who would care enough about me to die

He looked at me with compassion in his eyes

I knew he was waiting, I couldn’t reply

He asked me with love deep in his tone

Do you want to be free, for all this to be gone

I didn’t even have to think I quickly replied

Yes! Yes! I said with a quiet sigh

I couldn’t understand why he cared so much

For all MY friends left me alone and such

He held out his hand and beckoned me nearer

Even though my tears I could see clearer

This man really loved and cared about me

He died on the cross so I could be free

He quickly and quietly stripped me of my clothes

Then he gave me a brand new sparkling white robe

I looked up in amazement and surprise

Why would a man on a cross for me to

I fell on my knees and asked Him if this was for real

He took out a envelop and pulled out a seal

He stamped the seal on the envelop, a very bright red

Then he held it up and ripped it to shreds

I pondered what that was supposed to mean

I didn’t know what I had just seen

He then told me that that envelop was my sin

The he said he would never see it again

The tears of joy did flow down my face

I was free from those things by amazing grace

I asked him why he cared enough to free me

He handed me a book and told me I’d see

After I read for a while I started to sing

This man was Jesus the King of all kings

I realized he had a choice just like me

He made the right as far as I could see

He died on the cross and then rose from the dead

The path I didn’t take Jesus had led

I looked at him and cried Thank you Lord

When there was no way out you opened the door

I looked at him in wonder and awe

He had holes in his hands and feet I saw

I asked why he had holes in his hands and feet

He said, Child I did it all for thee

Amazed I asked him why he did this for a no one like me

Because, My  Child, I love you, you see

If he hadn’t came that day and saved me

I would be sinking deeper into that dark see

If only I’d listened and trusted myself

I could have saved myself from hell

I now realize what everyone means

When they always tell me those things

Sin will take you farther than you want to go

I had been there, I’d been low

Sin kept me longer than I wanted to say

And I paid more than I wanted to pay

p.s this is one of my poems:)

Something Amazing

Okay so when I was born I was immediatly placed for adoption. Not because my biological mother didn't love me, but because she knew she wouldn't be able to take care of me the way she wanted to. One amazing fact about me is that I was carried for nine months and my biological mother did not know it. I was a complete suprise. You would think that somenoe carrying a baby would actually know they were. The day I was born my Biological mom told my adoptive mom taht if she had known she was pregnant she would have gotton an abortion. After I heard that story I appreciated my life a little..no no wait a lot more. God had protected me from getting an abortion. I often wonder why God would place me in a home like this..but I know he did because he was protecting me from a lot in my life. So yeah short blog..there's a lot more to it...just don't really think I need to go into it all. I'll probably blog later.