Encouraging Bible Verses

I have been having some really bad depression problems. I have been having thoughts of hurting myself and even killing myself. Lately I have felt like no one cares and what’s the point in killing myself. Last night I went to bed and I felt like dying. I picked up my Bible and randomly opened it. It came to Jeremiah and it said: “For I know the thoughts I have toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.” In another translation it said: “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you  hope and a future.”

 I couldn’t believe that I had randomly read that verse. I have been doing a Bible study on how God is always there; but I hadn’t read this verse recently. I looked through my Bible and I saw a few more verses that helped me immensely  and I thought maybe they will help some of you.

2 Corinthians 4:8-9 “We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken, cast down, but not destroyed.”

2 Corinthians 12:9 “And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee, for my strength is made perfect in weakness.”

Isaiah 40:30-10 “Even though the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall: But they that wait up on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

Isaiah 41:10 “Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am they God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

Isaiah 43:2 “When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overcome thee; when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee.

Job 1:21-22 “And said, naked came I out of my mother’s womb, and naked shall I return thither: the Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord. In all this Job sinned not, nor charged God foolishly.”

Job 19:25-26 “For I know that my redeemer liveth, and that her shall stand at the latter day upon the earth: And though after my skin worms destroy this body, yet in flesh shall I see God.”

Psalms 27:1 “The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?”

Psalms 46:1,10 “God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Be still and know I am God; I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.”

Psalms 119: 105 “Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.”

Psalms 121:1-2 “I will lift mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the Lord, which made heaven and earth.”

Psalms 127:1 “Except the Lord build the house, they labour in vain that build it; except the Lord keep the city, the watchman waketh but in vain.”

Matthew 11:30 “For my yoke is easy, and my burden it light.”

Matthew 14:27 “But straightway Jesus spake unto them, saying, Be of good cheer; it is I, be not afraid.”

John 14:1, 27 “ Let not your heart be troubled, ye believe in God, believe also in me. Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you; not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”

Romans 8:28, 31 “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose. What shall we then say to these things? Of God be for us, who can be against us?”

Ephesians 6:10-11 “Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might. Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.”

1 Thessalonians 5:17-18 “Pray without ceasing. In everything give thanks, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.”

Hebrews 11:1 “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.”

Hebrews 13:8 “Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and to day, and for ever.”

James 4: 8 “Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you.”

1 Peter 5:7 “ Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.”

It's been Hard

Being  only fourteen most people think that I haven't been through anything hard at all. But that's the opposite of the truth. Here's a few things that I have been hard. I'm African-American, and sometimes I get treated like a piece of crap. I get thrown around and stomped on like I don't haev any feelings; but I do, I have feelings like any other human being. You think that's not hard? think again. Two years ago in the January of 2010 my life changed drastically. You know how we're always thinking that the new year will bring a better year than the last? Well...that's not always true. On January 2, my dad went into the hospital with some major heart issues. It turned out he was going to need some major surgery. While we we're going through that I experienced one of the hardest things I will ever experience. We usually go to church every Sunday morning and night. But once the evening service came, my mom was sick and so was my dad. I had this friend, who was older than me, but was my hero. She had had cancer for a few years, but during all that time I never heard her complain about the pain. I guess I knew she wasn't going to make it when I first met her, I just never figured she should die. Then on January 10, 2010 my brother got a text from someone from church, My friend, Sis.Heidi, had died. As my mom told me the news I felt as if my heart had broken into a thousand little pieces. I cried so many tears and questioned God for so long. I couldn't understand wyy God would put her in my life and taker her away. I went to bed that night feeling so down and depressed I thought I was going to die. As I let the reality of her death sink in, I became very depressed. Then on top of that my aunt became very sick and went into the hospital. I wanted to go to Sis. Heidi's funeral but couldn't because my dads surgery was the same day. I was really depressed about that until my mom told me that it was better to have all the good memories that see her in a coffin. I questioned God for a long time, then I realized Sis. Heidi;s work her on earth was done.  She had made her mark on everyone she touched and talked to, especially me. Sis. Heidi was my hero and always would be. As I coped with that my aunts health deteriorated, and my mom started spending all her free time with her, and I used all my time praying. I was an eleven year old experiencing my first heartache. Not the kind of heartache that you get when you find out the boy you like doesn't like you back, but a real heartache. The kind where you think you'll never recover. I began to sink deeper and deeper into depression, so much that thoughts of suicide came into my head. Just when I thought things couldn't get any worse, they did. One the morning of February 3, 2010 after spending the night at the hospital my mom came home to get my sister ready for school. While she was getting ready to go back she got a phone call, my aunt had passed away. I have never seen such a look of pain, anguish and sadness on my mom's face. Usually, I couldn't relate to my mom's problems, but this time I could. I knew what she was going through, and how she felt. I was eleven, I had just lost two very important people in less than a month. You think that's not hard? Think again. So you see, everyone has had their trials and troubles and I've had my share. Thy either make you or break you. And when I thought they broke me they were really making me into a stronger person.

What I Believe In

Today I was in Walmart and there were two teens in front of me. One was pregnant, and she was talking about getting an abortion. I know it's not right to listen in on other peoples conversation, but how could I resist. I wanted to just butt into their conversation and tell them how wrong they were going to be. I wanted to tell them how guilty they would be, but I kept my mouth shut. I walked out of that store, and I felt as if my heart as broken. I am very pro-life, I feel that if everyone alive had the right to life, why shouldn't a unborn baby have that same right. The Bible says "Lo, children are an heritage of the Lord." Doesn't that clue us that God is against it? I know other people may not have the same views, in fact some people may be all for abortion. I'm not trying to cram my beliefs down your throat, I'm am just stating facts. I believe in a lot of different things. I believe there is one true God, not five million. I do not believe in Evolution. I do, however, believe in the big bang theory. Your thinking to yourself "The big bang theory and evolution are the same thing." Well...not exactly you see God spoke, and BANG there it was. People always believe what men say, they don't read the Bible and find out the truth for themselves. I don't believe being a Polygamist is right. Honestly, I believe it's just one man being a pervert, just wanting an excuse to sleep when whole bunch of women. But I do believe in things. I believe in the good, old fashioned, Bible. "Sometimes you have to stand up for what's right, even if your standing alone." I have always been taught that no matter what people say or do to me, I need to stand up even if your standing alone. Okay that's it. Again..I'm not cramming anything down your throat, just stating my believes.

Thankfulness

So today in Devotions we were talking about being thankful and it’s not even Thanksgiving. I’m kidding. Personally, myself I have a lot of trouble not complaining because I may not have enough stuff or things like that. Then I remember people are way less fortunate than me. I mean I have everything I need, and then some. And other people have nothing. I should be thankful.

School

I have been home schooled all my life. My mom has home schooled all my siblings for all our life's. Except my sister, Bethany, who is twelve. Bethany, it a very difficult child. If anyone crosses her in the wrong way, she will destroy your property. When Bethany entered the third grade my mom enrolled her in a Christian School, but soon went back to homeschooling because she thought it was best for her. My older brother Ivan, was home schooled until college, and is in his second year of college. My two younger sisters, Alexis and Alyssa, are both in second grade. They are fourteen months apart but they are very smart, so my mom decided they were smart enough to be put in the same grade. I am in the eighth grade and experiencing my hardest year yet. Mostly because I am in a new school curriculum and it's not Christian. Learning about evolution is hard for me to digest. I often find myself standing up and asking the teacher a lot about it, and how she could believe such things when the Bible clearly states otherwise. Usually she tells me she is just doing her job. I absolutely love school, for the most part, but sometimes I wonder how some of the kids can be son disrespectful to the teachers. Some of them blatantly disobey or sass, and most of the time the teachers allow them to. I wonder what happened to respect. For the most part, I do extra curricular activities, Spanish, Writing Class, Gym. Lots of stuff  outside school. Sometimes I miss being home schooled, for reasons such as sleeping in. But for the most part, I need to be public schooled, because I may be the only light some kids need. I may be the only Bible they read.

Stuff To Do When Bored

I get bored VERY easily and maybe some of you do to:) So here is a list of stuff to do when you get bored:)

1. Listen To Upbeat music
2. Just DANCE!
3. Sing as loud as you can
4. Go outside and run around your house five times
5. Draw a picture
6. email me at breannam1998@gmail.com
7. Make your own blog
8. Listen to singers and make fun of their facial expressions
9. Read a retarded book
10. Complain about how there is nothing to do
11. Read poetry (like the really old kind)
12. Read your Bible
13. act like an idiot
14. Text a friend (if you have a phone)
15. write a book

Are you still bored???

Email me at breannam1998@gmail.com with your ideas of how not to be bored!!:)

Songs:)

So I made a list of some amazing songs. There not in order because I can't they are all to amazing:)

1. I've Had My Moments By: Emerson Drive
2. Sexy And I Know It By: LM**O
3. Stay By: Sugerland
4. Blah Blah Blah By: Ke$ha
5. Stuck Like Glue By: Sugerland
6. The Lazy Song By: Bruno Mars
7. Easy By: Rascal Flatts
8. I Have Been Blessed By: ??
9. We Are Who We Are By: Ke$ha
10. Grenade By: Bruno Mars
11. Judas By: Lady Gaga
12. The Best Thing I Never Had By: Beyonce
13. Beatiful By: Christina Aguilera
14. Jar Of Hearts By: Christina Perri
15. Last Friday Night By: Katy Perry
16. In The Arms Of In Angel By: Sarah McLachlan
17. No One By: Alicia Keys
18. Love The Way You Lie By: Eminem
19.I Loved Her First By: Heartland
20. You Can Let Go Now Daddy By: Crystle Shawanda
21. I Love You This Big By: Scotty McCreery
22. Hollaback Girl By: Gwen Stefani
I also made a list of terrible songs

1. God Gave Me You By: Blake Shelton
2. I Love You Like A Love Song By: Selena Gomez
3. Baby By: Justin Beiber
4. ET By: Katy Perry

Not as many horrible songs as there are good:)

Ever had those moments?

We all have our moments...good ones and bad. And fortunately most of those moments are good. Ever had those moments where you get so embarressed you wish you could just shrink away and die. I've had those, like the time I went to the restroom at church and when I was leavign half my skirt wasn't pulled all the way down...yeah that was a time when I really wanted to die. You remember what you wanted to be when you were six years old..I do. I wanted to be a doctor..then I got a shot, and I never wantd to join forces with the enemy. Or those moments where you made a complete idiot out of your best friend?? I think those are the best moments...until they get you back and you wonder why you ever would do something to make them do this. Or them moments you get cussed out and say "God bless you." I have had those..they usually get ticked off at me. Or the moment when your little sister asks you what the B word means? Yupp I've had that happen to..I actually answered "Did someone call you that?!" she answered wisely "No, you idiot, I wanted to call you that." At first I thought she was being serious then I knew she wa being sarcastic. Ever had those moments when you didn't get a joke? Yupp had that to, and I still don't get any Yo Moma jokes. Or the moments when you get so mad at someone you really want to hurt them. I've had those..and trust me counting to ten doesn't usually work...just saying. Or when you spend your day writing a story only to have your brother laugh at it. Okay, so maybe it didn't happen to you but it did happen to me. I spent all day writing a really good story (I was eight and I thought it was good but...) about a guy I liked at the time (Elok) and when I read it to my brother, he busted out laughing. I learned taht day never to read anything to my brother again. Or when you reallly don't get football no matter how hard you try. Yeah, I still don't get it. We all have those moments where we really don't understand stuff..but admitt it...those are THE BEST moments of our lifes.

Today...sort of.

Just got back from church. I live like....thirty minutes away from my church, but I wouldn't trade churches for anything. I have gone there for...almost thirteen years!! I don't really like Sunday School, but it's okay. It's kind of hard for me to sit still the whole hour because of my ADD. Plus our teacher doesn't let us talk or ask questions, which to me is really really hard. But besides that it's pretty cool. I'm trying to get my mom to get me and ipod touch for my birthday (in two weeks) and it's not going as planned. Then I told her just to give me money ($150) and that's also not going great. But change of subject. So I am a fourteen year old girl and I already have my baby names planned out. Yeah I'm weird. I have like sixty pages of baby names...which is about six thousand names. I have a lot of free time on my hands so don't judge. Okay so today my friend Lindie told us a joke. So I hope you all know what LOL means because if you don't...well you don't. So this thought LOL meant Lots of Love, so when her mom died she texted her daughter and said "Gramma just died, LOL." I really did LOL. Because someone really needs to teach theirmom what LOL means. So my friend Cayre is dating my other friend Kollin. And when Cayre is on her 'monthly' Kollin says "Have you met TOM?' TOM means Time Of Month...yeah I just got that. This is a very random post...can't really think about anything to talk about...so I'll blog later:)

Random Facts

1. I love Anything Neon
2. loveGod
3. love the Bible
4. love writing
5. love math
6. lovet he song Sexy And I Know it
7. I'm adopted
8. My middle name is Mae
9. My bestfriend is Cayre
10. My best guys friends name is Elok, Nillok, Notolk and others
11. love Chicken
12. Hate when drama happens
13. Dramatic people
14. I HATE racism with a passion
15. I want world peace
16. I love when everyones getting along
17. Nillok has a ver interesting ming
18. I love Aeropostle
19. I love mismatched socks
20. I like purses that are cute
21. I actually like one of my guy best friends
22. I HATE mushrooms
23. I HATE bullying
24. I am really lazy:)
25. I have blue eys...jk I have brown eyes
26. I have alot of blond moments..one of them was a bathroom incident with Cayre
27. Why am I doing this??
28. I spend way to much time writing
29. Hahahaha I love a guy named Notlok
20. Yeah I'm done:)

Misc...

Some..stuff about me. I smoke pot...kidding..kidding..don't lose your mind. I was kidding. My name is Breanna Mae. I have to many brothers and sisters to list but I have two brothers and five sisters. I also have a twin sister...her name is Eryca Lauren. I'm kidding...shes like my bestest friend in the world and I don't know what I would do without her...she's like my inspiration. Okay so I also have ALOT of guy friends. Kole, Kollin, Kolton, Kaden, Russel, Alec, Alex, Alex, Connor, Mason, Landon, Jackson....and it goes on and on and on. My girls friends are Eryca, Lindie, Whitney, Katee, Katie, Kaitie, Katye, Kaytye, Emile, Emmalee, Emalee, Emily, Emily, and more and more and more. So yeah. I love to write poetry and stuff. I like LOVE Ke$ha and Bruno Mars because they are amazing.  I love to read....it's like my passion. I love to write...unless I am under pressure..then you got a whole different story. I drink beer....I'm just kidding again....don't lose your mind. I brink root beer...my motto?? "If your gonna drink and drive drink root beer." Not really mine for real it's my Spanish teachers. Hahahahah...I also have a very crazy but amazing spanish teacher. You wouldn't understand unless you've met her. Trust me. Okay so I yuppppp...that's it.

If Only

                                        If Only

                             By: Breanna Miller

It’s dark and cold and lonely

I can’t help to think ‘If Only’

I could have chosen the right way

‘No’ I could have chose to say

All my friends followed this path

They said to take the other way was daft

They told me it was neat and cool

But over it I would lose my soul

One beer won’t hurt one little bit

It’s okay for one cigarette to be lit

Try cocaine just this one time

I thought if I did I would shine

Crack is great, it’s the best thing

But I only brought my self shame

I put on a smile and laughed a lot

Really I though of all the trouble I’d got

On the outside I felt so alive

On the inside I knew I had died

I drank and partied every single day

I was really living I could never say

I began to miss my old peaceful life

A life that never had any of this strife

I realized it was to late to stop

All these habits I couldn’t drop

I never thought I would go this far

Never thought I would enter a bar

I was being drug down faster

Drugs and cocaine were my master

I couldn’t do it anymore, I wanted to be free

I was bound forever as far as I could see

This path isn’t all fun and games

It was a disgrace to even say my name

I had my joy and merriment

Now I don’t even have a cent

I couldn’t go back I was to far gone

A far as I could see I as done

Then this man reached way down

He picked me up before I drowned

He gave me some food and something to drink

He told me of death I was on the brink

I was dirty and my scars you could see

Then he asked me if I wanted to be free

I stared a moment the I said sir

I’m to far gone can’t you see my dirt

He gave a smile and quickly replied

Just for you on a cross I bled and died

I gaped in astonishment, the tears coming fast

I would be free from this burden at last

I didn’t know whether to laugh or to cry

Who would care enough about me to die

He looked at me with compassion in his eyes

I knew he was waiting, I couldn’t reply

He asked me with love deep in his tone

Do you want to be free, for all this to be gone

I didn’t even have to think I quickly replied

Yes! Yes! I said with a quiet sigh

I couldn’t understand why he cared so much

For all MY friends left me alone and such

He held out his hand and beckoned me nearer

Even though my tears I could see clearer

This man really loved and cared about me

He died on the cross so I could be free

He quickly and quietly stripped me of my clothes

Then he gave me a brand new sparkling white robe

I looked up in amazement and surprise

Why would a man on a cross for me to

I fell on my knees and asked Him if this was for real

He took out a envelop and pulled out a seal

He stamped the seal on the envelop, a very bright red

Then he held it up and ripped it to shreds

I pondered what that was supposed to mean

I didn’t know what I had just seen

He then told me that that envelop was my sin

The he said he would never see it again

The tears of joy did flow down my face

I was free from those things by amazing grace

I asked him why he cared enough to free me

He handed me a book and told me I’d see

After I read for a while I started to sing

This man was Jesus the King of all kings

I realized he had a choice just like me

He made the right as far as I could see

He died on the cross and then rose from the dead

The path I didn’t take Jesus had led

I looked at him and cried Thank you Lord

When there was no way out you opened the door

I looked at him in wonder and awe

He had holes in his hands and feet I saw

I asked why he had holes in his hands and feet

He said, Child I did it all for thee

Amazed I asked him why he did this for a no one like me

Because, My  Child, I love you, you see

If he hadn’t came that day and saved me

I would be sinking deeper into that dark see

If only I’d listened and trusted myself

I could have saved myself from hell

I now realize what everyone means

When they always tell me those things

Sin will take you farther than you want to go

I had been there, I’d been low

Sin kept me longer than I wanted to say

And I paid more than I wanted to pay

p.s this is one of my poems:)

Something Amazing

Okay so when I was born I was immediatly placed for adoption. Not because my biological mother didn't love me, but because she knew she wouldn't be able to take care of me the way she wanted to. One amazing fact about me is that I was carried for nine months and my biological mother did not know it. I was a complete suprise. You would think that somenoe carrying a baby would actually know they were. The day I was born my Biological mom told my adoptive mom taht if she had known she was pregnant she would have gotton an abortion. After I heard that story I appreciated my life a little..no no wait a lot more. God had protected me from getting an abortion. I often wonder why God would place me in a home like this..but I know he did because he was protecting me from a lot in my life. So yeah short blog..there's a lot more to it...just don't really think I need to go into it all. I'll probably blog later.

Yesterday!

So I told you guys that I was gonna blog yesterday which I fully intended to but instead I spent half the day cleaning and the other half in bed with a fever. So yesterday my mom was having a belated New Years party with a bunch of her friends and I was dragged into helping her clean and cook for it; and let me tell you that it was not a joyful experience. My mom tends to get very frustrated over thing like these, and then I get very frustrated right back and then...well lets just say that sometimes it doesn't end up pretty. Who knew a bunch of MIDDLE aged people, let me make the clear I said middle aged people not old people, see I can be very polite...when I want to; anyway who knew a bunch of them could get together and stay up until four in the morning. I mean really people, really? I am fourteen and I can hardly stay up that late...well I can but I didn't really want to stay up and watch then ail at Catchphrase and Balderdash, it's not that entertaining. One question at Catchphrase was "He is famous, he cheated on his wife, he putts something" and they still couldn't get the answer. I just about had to stand up and shout "Tiger Woods" then the timer beeped and I said "really, I'm what, 30 years younger than you and I knew the answer. That's kind of sad" I think my mom got a little ticked at me because then she gave me THE look, and then I shut my mouth. So then I went upstairs and wasted all my time watching 'I Love Lucy'. An amazing seven hours of my life...that were a little wasted. Change of subject..that picture is not me or a picture of my baby...just thought I say that, I DO NOT, repeat DO NOT have a baby. Come on people, I am fourteen..could I possibly have a baby? Quit it...I know what your thinking,..just stop. I'm kidding. So anyways, I'm home schooled, so I think I'm a little a sheltered. I mean I have absolutely no social life. I have church friends and some other friends. But the last time I went to the mall with one of my friends was on my birthday....on January 21...of last year!!!! Another change of subject...I do that alot, you know change the subject. So I am entering this poetry contest nation wide!! I am super nervous, super ecited, and super scared. I am entering Christian Poetry so I'm might be judged a little differently than the other peoples. But it may someones only chance to hear about God so I am taking this chance. So after this blog I will do another one about something extra ordinary..come one put those two words together you can do it. See extraordinary, okay so I will do a extraordinary post. Okay so yeah..Okay? Okay!

About Me:)

Hey Everyone!
My name is Breanna and I am blogging because I love love love love to write. I can't even tell you how much I love to write. Anyways I write mostly Christian Poetry because that is what I believe in. One of these times I might post one of my poems but not now. Anyways a little about me. I am a fourteen year old teenage girl. I have my ups and my downs and my downs and highs just like everyone else. One thing I have to say is I am most definitely not perfect...in fact I am far from it. I have ADD (attention deficient disorder.) I can not sit down for more than five minutes at once to do one thing. Now your probably wondering how are you writing this, well I take medication every morning because if I didn't I would fail at school. I absolutely hate watching football, hate it with a passion. But I love playing it. My best sport is Basketball considering that I am 5 "7! I was adopted when I was born into a great Christian family, as was my four brothers and sisters. I have a amazing friends and without them I don't know where I would be. Sometimes I suffer from severe depression, but it usually doesn't last long. It's super late, actually super early and I am super tired otherwise I would tell you about my day (nice and hectic, just the way I hate it.) So I will try to blog tomorrow morning or afternoon. BYE!!!

Breanna Mae